My Tattoo

I got this tattoo when I was 24. After considerable debate, I finally decided to go with a friend, we got them done at the same time. She got a tiny rose (unspoken placement), I however chose to go with my lower back. I wanted something black, just something, a random design, no meaning. I thought the middle looked like a "V". My husband calls it the bat. Whatever!
Honestly, I barely made it through. It hurt sooo bad, and I am NOT a weenie! The pain radiated forward to my right leg and down my inner right thigh. Then, to make matters worse, in healing, it seeped and I got a terrible rash, it was so miserable! It was suggested I use something called 'tattoo goo', which my tattoo artist did not tell me. I got by with triple antibiotic, and soon enough it was healed. I would not do it again, I don't think. Although, I have thought about have my kids' names done all together on my ankle, like an ankle bracelet. Not sure I'll ever go through with it!
In case you are wondering...I posted this in response to Drea's Tattoo Dilemma

Patience...gone

Having been slightly 'ill' over the past week, it's all catching up with me. By all, I mean...laundry, lack of sleep, cleaning, LACK OF PATIENCE! I am really losing it. I am probably very scary, to tell you the truth. But, I HAVE NO PATIENCE. None, nada, zip, zilch...I am very short. I can feel it, but I just simply cannot bite my tongue. It's too quick. To take it all a bit further, that Boy, the largest focus of my affections, is turning quickly into my worst nightmare! Is it the age of 3, nearing 4? Is it the lack of outdoor playtime due to horrible amounts of rain? Possibly, his lack of sleep due to refusing to take a nap, and wanting to stay up until midnight, then awakening bright and early??? I AM A WRECK! Sweet Leah, she is also testing, testing, TESTING...full body tantrums in the crib when I lay her down for nap...OMG, it's like she's undergoing an exorcism, truly, I cannot take a minute more of this insanity!!!

I dare you~80's video faves

Oh, to dare me! I am all up for this one! I was born in 1977, I was 3-13 in the 80's. I was Cyndi Lauper for halloween when I was 12! I loved her! In fact, my sister and I just saw her in concert August 2005, that was one amazing show! She still rocks!My favorite ofcourse(wasn't it every girls fave?) is Girls Just Wanna Have Fun.

I remember sneaking early in the morning to watch VH1, to hopefully get a chance to see the video 99 Luft Balloons by Nena, I loved that song! Not realizing then what it meant at all, I was probably 7 or 8?
I also remember at about the age of 11 or 12, meeting a girl that was about 15, and we became friends. She was constantly playing Depeche Mode on her 'boombox', and it was music I had never heard before. I loved it! It intrigued me. Then again, I grew up listening to GOLDEN OLDIES, my parents sheltered me, come on' Mom, admit it!

I will admit, I also danced around, trying to look like and sing like Madonna in Like a Virgin. I'm sure my parents just cringed!
I also loved the song Gypsy by Stevie Nicks. Still listen to Fleetwood Mac, classic!

Update & Friday Fave

Acid Reflux? I have been taking Prilosec now for a total of 4 days, and honestly, IT'S WORKING! I am so relieved. I have been able to function, to EAT! I can drink a little coffee once again...I was really missing that! Although, all the water and tea has done me some good anyway. It was so miserable to constantly be worrying, and anxious of everything I took in causing me so much pain. It was all I thought about for the past week, practically. Very hard to take care of two high energy, demanding tots! Impossible to spend much time cleaning either! I did still go to work. But, you know, no matter what, when I am sick, DH still expects that I should function normally. Heaven forbid it disables me in any way. Yet, when it is him, he is such a big fat baby! He wants me to wait on him hand and foot, it's really pitiful! Whatever...thank the Lord that something has 'fixed' me for now...

FRIDAY FAVE

Leah is completely absorbed by all things 'Elina'. She thinks that Barbie IS Elina. Everything Barbie, she insists is Elina. Elina being the main character in the Barbie Fairy movies~Fairytopia , Mermaidia& Magic of the Rainbow. She has confiscated all of Drew's fairytopia, and mermaidia barbie dolls, mini dolls, and books. She sleeps with them EVERY SINGLE NAP AND NIGHTTIME. She is always pleading with me to play 'da wion', this fairies name is really, Dandelion. Anyway... we fly the fairies around the room, I make 'da wion' talk to Elina, "Hi, how are you? Do you want to play?" Leah..."I'm Awina, I'm pink!" And, THAT is what she says, all she says. Beau said,"Awina doesn't have words."

Throwback Thursday *The 80's

This Throwback Thursday is nothing to do with me...I am sure hoping this was on Halloween vs. 'just for fun'! LOL. My husband is 10 years my senior, he grew up in the days of KISS, and all the long hair, make up bands. He still listens to it all. This pic is of him and a couple friends, 'all made up' Posing. You gotta get a laugh out of this. (My husband is on the far left)

Wordless Wednesday

Power Rangers DVD Contest...GERD?

WHAT A PERFECT GIFT FOR MY LITTLE COUSIN, ACE! The Domestic Diva is giving away a new Mighty Morphin Power Rangers DVD! My boy, he has NO idea what power rangers are yet, so we'll wait a little longer to let that become his obsession...nothing wrong with keeping him playing with the planes, trains, and automobiles a bit longer, right??? Ace, I think my cousin Melissa has said, runs around in his Power Rangers costume naked! lol. He is such a cutie!

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On another note: I had an appt. with my FNP today, regarding my "heartburn". Well, it did not stop at friday night, but continued on all weekend, and is still an issue. The DNS at my work, she thinks it is my gallbladder, however, my FNP seems to be pretty confident that the issue lies in my esophagus, GERD~Gastro Esophageal Reflux Disease. I am not sure what I think about it. All I do know is that I have lost 7 lbs. due to NOT being able to eat without pain increasing. The wieght I am not concerned about losing, could stand to lose 40 more, really. My diet is consisting of hot tea, water, protein water, fat free milk with cheerios, and well...that's pretty much it. Juice is not working, and every time I eat anything else, the discomfort becomes so hard to bear! I have agreed to try Prilosec for 10 days, she gave me a free 10 day supply, yay! If, after 10 days, the pain is still there, or increasing (oh lord!) I will have to undergo an abdominal ultrasound to determine if the problem does truly lie in the gallbladder. I could have gotten the AUS today or tomorrow, but if it was negative, I would then have to undergo an Upper GI, and THAT I DO NOT WANT TO DO! So, by taking the prilosec for 10 days, it will pretty much be better determined that it is my gallbladder vs. my esophagus IF the prilosec does not work. Which hopefully then means I can avoid an Upper GI. God, I am getting so old! What happened to my 20's??? I think I skipped right over them, atleast it feels like it. I spent them all busy going to college, and popping out babies! Busy busy, and now, I'm 30, and facing the diagnosis of GERD, or possible gallbladder removal...rewind PLEASE?!

'PECIAL TWEET & A FUR REAL HORSE?

I have been going slightly crazy lately, all the running here, running there...it's getting to me! Now I know what it means when I see those bumper stickers on other minivans that say "MOM'S TAXI" lol. I love my kids, I love that they are interested in sports, and that they are active. Don't get me wrong...but at the same time, I love the quiet evening, the winding down time, NOT that it's ever really quiet. It's just that our schedule seem so hectic, so irregular that the little ones often miss a naptime, dinner consists of cheerio's, and bathtimes are spaced too far from the last! I sometimes feel like all that will help me deal with it all is a bottle of wine! (DID I SAY THAT?) No, seriously, I just cannot truly relax with all this going on!
So, tonight, I had Grace babysit shortly for me to go and shop around with my Mom. I promised a special treat if all went well. I was probably gone an hour at most. I get home, Beau and Leah come running, "MOM! MOM! YOU'RE HOME! DID YOU GET A 'PECIAL TWEET?" I had gotten them a bag of chocolate candies. Leah always seems to make an absolute mess of everything she eats. She doesn't just put it in her mouth, she licks it, she sucks on it with her fingers in her mouth, and then it's all over her hand and face! This is the kind of moment that just tosses me back on track. The little chocolate covered fingers, and chocolate smeared face. Priceless. One day, I will miss this so much. It helps me to step back and laugh a little. Which, believe me, YOU HAVE TO DO AS A MOTHER OR THEY WILL EAT YOU ALIVE!


While browsing at Target, me and my Mom came across the most insane toy ever! It is called Fur Real Butterscotch Pony. Priced at a whopping 249.99, you can ride this thing! The tail swishes, ears wiggle, eyes wink, and it makes real pony sounds. You feed it a carrot, brush it's mane, just like caring for a REAL horse! Well, without the poop, I guess. What are they gonna come up with next?
PSST! I took Beau and Leah to see this thing at Target today *10/16* and Leah LOVED IT! She would have stayed all day long feeding, brushing, petting it. Too bad it's 250 bucks!

Auugghhh!!!

I almost never ever get heartburn. I most NEVER even get sick! I am a very healthy person. I could stand to lose weight, but surely many Mom's can say the same. What am I getting at?
Well, last night as I lay down to bed, I had this overhwelming feeling of upper GI discomfort, I got up to take some Tum's, downed 4, drank some water, and it only got worse! I was in misery! I actually, sorry for the graphics, ended up vomiting just to fell better!
This morning, I was fine, and ate breakfast as usual. Not that much later, it came on again! This time worse than the last. I ate some Tum's again, only 2, drank some water, but once again, resorted to vomiting all of my breakfast up to get relief. Gross, I know.
Drew had soccer and basketball, so I refrained from eating till late afternoon. I should have just not eaten at all, 'cause not that long afterward it all came back again! My Dad had let me take one of his prevacid solutabs, but it didn't work. Then, he offered me a Protonix, but it didn't completely relieve it. On the way home, still causing me discomfort at 8pm, I stopped at the drug store, and got some Gaviscon, and Rolaids, 'just in case', heck, I thought about buying out the whole isle of antacids! I opened the bottle of Gaviscon (strawberry smoothie flavored) and downed 2 right away before leaving the parking lot. MAN ARE THOSE NASTY! I drank a sip of water, hoping for the immediate relief that the bottle promised, but...NOT HAPPENIN'! So, I got home, tried to shake it off, but it was unrelenting! I finally gave in, and took 2 rolaids, ATLAST, 9PM, I HAVE SOME RELIEF! I am scared to death to eat anything! What the heck is going on? I can't even drink water without getting a tingle of heartburn. I cannot function caring for 4 kids with any little bit of illness, or discomfort! I sure hope it stays away now that I've gotten it under some control!

General Audience!

I saw this on a few other blogs, and decided to try it out myself, not recalling if I had ever used any foul language in my blog over the past 2 1/2 years! So, here is my rating:

"NO BAD WORDS WERE FOUND"

Crushes Revealed

I have been 'blog browsing' recently, and came across the blog of Mother Bumper. She is absolutely hilarious! I love reading her blog! She has put out a challenge: SPILL ON YOUR CRUSHES FROM PUBERTY.
So, here I am revealing...
Back in my preteen days it was all about NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK...don't start laughing yet...My all time heart throb was...hang on...Joey McIntire. OMG, I LOVED HIM, I THOUGHT HE WAS SO HOT! I still have thier cassette tape, HOW PATHETIC IS THAT?



I will also admit, I crushed on Corey Haim

and Sean Astin as well (before the days of Froto)

Moving into High School, I totally fell for Keanu Reeves...

And, then, still now, I dream of life with Johnny Depp! There is just something about a bad boy that makes my heart race!

This was so much fun, I'm going to tag Cheryl, Margo, Jess, Donna, and Drea!

Infant/Child Cold Medicine Recall

THE MUST READ ARTICLE!

I, myself, do not use any of the recalled medications with my children, but if you want to know which medications specifically have been recalled you can go HERE to determine if you have any of them in your medicine cupboard. If you determine that you do, take it back to the store, and you can receive a refund.
I generally use Motrin for fever, and vapor rub along with a vaporizor for colds with my children. Cough medications never seemed to work for us anyway, and I have always been educated by my Pediatrician NOT to use OTC cough/cold medications. Although, the only thing I have ever resorted to, with the okay from my pediatrician is DELYSM. With a child, a cough has a purpose. Most pediatricians will tell you that. Unless it is affecting thier sleep, I refrain from using any medications.

Missed out!

I completely missed out on Throwback Thursday, and I had a stellar plan, but the pics I wanted to use had to be scanned before I could use them! *Cheryl, you'll be wanting to check back on this one next thursday! Anyone reading will get a kick out of it!

Friday Faves~Holidays

My favorite holiday is Halloween. I love getting all the kids decked out in thier little costumes! I used to make them myself, until #3 and #4 babies came along. I have made cinderella, snow white, the good witch from the wizard of oz, a witch, poodle skirt, a flamenco dancer, and dorothy for my daughters. It was fun! I also made a Hershey's kiss costume for Drew when she was a baby. Unfortunately this was most all before I ever had a digital camera...but I do have a couple pics. *Left: Grace as a 'punk rocker', I took a black ball skirt I found at ROSS(I love Ross!) and added purple sequin strips to bottom hem, and sewed in different colors of tulle beneath, found different colored beaded neclaces at goodwill in a big bunch for only a couple dollars, and we sprayed a rainbow of colored hairspray in her hair after crimping it, and pulled it up into a half pony with a fake hair pony tail holder that had pink hair on it. And, Drew in a cute witch costume made all by me! I used purple costume satin, and this sheer black overlay that had a spiderweb design on it, found the matching broom at the dollar tree! *Right: Drew in the 'Dorothy' costume I made for her, second year wearing it. This is one I kept, it came out so good! And, you can always find red glitter dorothy shoes at Target every year, so Leah will one day wear this!
I also love October, and Halloween for the changing weather, the falling leaves, and going to the pumpkin patch! Always on our list!

Dora Cupcakes!

The other day at work, a family had brought in a birthday cake for a patient and then gave the staff he remaining cake and napkins. They happened to be Dora the Explorer themed, and another nurse insisted that I take them home with me. So...I did!
The next morning, Leah immediately noticed and spent the entire day spreading them out, and saying "It's my bir-day cake Mom!" All excited!

We had also been reading her dora book, Dora's Picnic. In this book, Isa makes chocolate cupcakes with pink frosting, so I thought... why not? I went and got some cake mix, and pink frosting, we made some too! This made Leah so happy!!! It was so cute! So, they had pink frosted cupcakes like Dora! I ♥ the age of 2!

Fun at the Park!

Robyn's Nest Scrabble Earrings Giveaway!

Drea @ DE REVIEWS is having a contest to win a pair of scrabble earrings from Robyn's Nest. My dtr thinks these are so cool. I'm entering for her! Take a look for yourself HERE!

Love this song!

How totally crazy I feel, but I know I'm not the only one...I love this song! It is sooo catchy! And...how ironic is it that that voice is coming from this girl??? She kinda reminds me of Lisa Loeb on the soundtrack from REALITY BITES. One of my fave 90's movies! *psst...if you want to watch the video, scroll down and pause my playlist, or you'll be hearing the song with "echo"!

A mess of toys...New Vaccuum...SATEE'S!

This is what I found when I got out of the shower this morning...2 crazy tots rummaging the toy box...'findin' treasures'...long lost toys that gravitated to the bottom! LOL!


I did get my new vaccuum finally, today. Against the advise of the repair man, I used my old broken one a couple more times, and finally threw it out today. I was told it could light on fire, there was a chance anyway...luckily it didn't. The vaccuum I decided on buying is the Dirt Devil Reaction. I think I'm really gonna like it!

Perks: 4 year warrantee, *lifetime washable hepa filter (lovin' this since my old vaccume had one I had to replace every year at a whopping $30 a pop!), also has an option to add a scented filter into the hepa filter that distributes your choice of scents, it came with 2 apple cinnamon scented ones, I think an unscented one is in it right now. Also, the dirt chamber pulls off, and opens from the bottom to empty! How cool is that? No more messy dust in my face! Also, does not have the cog belt that caused the damage to my other vaccuums brush bar, so the same problem will not happen again with this one!

Today, I also received my SATee's T's! I love them! I got Leah's in pink, DILATORY means 'to cause delay', and she does just that!
Beau's GREGARIOUS mean 'sociable', and, well...ask anyone, he is very much so!
Can't wait to get reactions to these!
I will say, the 4T, which I got for Leah, runs a bit on the small side, and the small boys is kinda long. But, still very cute!

Throwback Thursday

This is me at age of, hmmm, 13 or 14 I think. I used to babysit many neighbors children. This little girl had spina bifida. She could not walk at the age of 2, she did learn to use braces and crutches at 3/4 years old. She was a darling! At this age, I had always planned to have 10 kids! Crazy, I know, but I did end up with 4 of my own, and boy, is that busy, I could never imagine 10!

Recall...Lead Paint Threat

Christmas is quickly approaching, and I have been browsing around, thinking of what each of the kids might like, or want. Leah is so into Dora the Explorer right now, and they just came out with these take-a-long Dora the Explorer playsets, like the Thomas the Tank Engine ones? They are so cute! I would really like to get THIS one for Leah but, the whole lead paint recall keeps resurfacing in my mind. Tons of Dora the Explorer products were recalled recently (none of which we own), then even more...and now there are 5 more Thomas the Tank Engine themed vehicles recalled, and...we have one of them. The Brendham Fishing Dock, cargo car. Luckily, only this one, I sent in 4 last time, and still have not received replacements. This is making shopping for christmas toys/gifts, very hard, the haunting thought that I might be buying and giving to my children something that is covered in lead paint! Maybe it's just time to go back to good old fashioned wooden toys?!
You can go HERE to determine if you might have any of the newly recalled items.

Lovin' it!

In case any of you reading may be wondering, I had Drea from Fina Drea create this amazing blog template for me, I AM SO LOVING IT! She does a great job! If you are enjoying it too, please, leave a comment! ( As MotherBumper stated...NO MORE LURKING WITHOUT COMMENT!) I am hoping that soon, Drea will have a button for any of you that might want to link to me!

If your wondering what 'delurking' means, click on the button below!

Pushing Daisies Premier Tonight!

I am looking forward to the premier of the new show PUSHING DAISIES, not often a TV show catches my attention...
Check it out here!
Basis: If you could bring anyone back to life for 60 seconds, who would it be? AND...what would you ask?
I pose this question to any blog readers...My answer would be, My Grandma Georgia, and my question...Am I doing a good job raising my children? I always wonder this.

Wordless Wednesday~Touchin' a King Crab

Template under construction

This is a post letting you know this blog is currently under construction! thanks :-)

Drea

Funny things...

Before they leave my mind forever...

Today we were driving, and Beau started talking, "Mommy, I don't have a heart do I? 'Cause I'm a boy." Me to Beau... "Ofcourse you have a heart, if you didn't have a heart you would not be alive." Beau.."Mommy, does Weah have a heart?" Me..."Yes." Leah..."NO! I DON'T HAVE A HEART, I HAVE FLOWERS!"

We were at McDonalds, in line, and a lady was standing behind us, she had these tall, high heel boots on, a dress. Leah stopped dead in her tracks and hollered out, "OH! MOMMY 'OOK! SHE HAB'S DANCIN' SHOES ON!" The lady just started laughing. I think it kind of embarrassed her!

Random

STRANGE AND UNUSUAL: I usually make coffee in the morning, and drink atleast one cup. Leah, for some odd reason, will come up to me frequently and say..."I want to smell you coppee Mom!" And, she does just that, smells my coffee! What the???

STRESSFUL: I worked all weekend, I took on one extra shift, actually my schedule got all mixed up with my husband having taken vacation early september, thus requesting that I not work so he could go fishing for a couple days, and his Dad had some to visit as well. I love working weekends, it's quieter, for the most part. But, my favorite little man, his blood sugars were skyrocketing off the charts at one moment, and then plummeting the next! I just simply could not pinpoint why! I tried to make sure he did not get a lot of carbs in his meal, but it just didn't seem to make a difference. 1st check 57 WHAT??? Give some OJ, next check 93, OK, 170 at bedtime...snack to get him through the night, and hopefully keep him from bottoming at midnight. Prior night, 516, 558, 589...call MD, get more insulin orders, then what happens? Midnight down 200's, then early am? 56!!! Crazy. One thing that baffles me, is that a nursing home, with so many diabetics to care for, literally, TONS, seems not to serve a diabetic diet. (* To give an idea...normal blood sugars should range an average of 70-110, give or take a little depending upon the person). The thing is, this patient does not necessarily show any symptoms at either end of the spectrum, extremely high or extremely low. This has happened with a few patients. I think we even had some not showing any signs or symptoms as low as 32!! This makes it very scary for the nurses, since we are looking for signs and symptoms, especially with a diabetic patient. If there are none, then unless we have orders for routine blood sugar checks, we won't see a need to check prn (as needed). Hopefully the doctor will work with us to get his insulin orders to where they need to be to keep this from continually happening.

Well, laundry calls, as it always does...

Friday Faves~TV shows

I really don't watch much TV, in fact, I never turn it on, DH does! But, if I remember the night and time...my favorite TV show is SCRUBS!!! I love Dr. Cox, he is awsome! The humor in this show always gets me laughing. I try to get each season on DVD since I usually miss them on TV. I have 1, 2 and 4, searching for season 3!!!



On a side note: We recently watched a newly released movie called KNOCKED UP! I haven't laughed sooo hard in, like...FOREVER! I never watch a movie twice, but we plan to watch this one again, it was that funny!

Our Family

I saw this in a few other blogs, had to do it too!

What's in a name?...INSPIRED

When I was pregnant with my son, I knew deep down, he was a HE! I had no problem finding his name either. It had to be Beau. I chose this name for it's rarity and meaning. Also, our last name being of french origin, I wanted his name to be of the same.

Beau~

from the beautiful mountain, handsome, beautiful

My husband, mind you, would say to me, "No boy cares what his name means!" I beg to differ.
I sing to my son, I love this boy. I tell him what his name means, over and over, he wants to know this, he loves hearing it. He will say, "Mom, sing the handsome song!" This boy could be none other than his namesake. BEAU MICHAEL JOSEPH.


MICHAEL~ who is like God
JOSEPH~God will add, increase,multiply

'I prayed for this child and the Lord has granted me what I asked of HIM' 1 Samuel 1:27


Now, tell me DH, again, that a boy doesn't care what his name means???

SATee's Contest!

Great contest over at DE REVIEWS by Drea & Elizabeth...darling little tee up to win!
Wish I had this idea! I would pick this tee *left* DILATORY meaning TENDING TO CAUSE DELAY...which absolutely depicts my sweet Leah! For her, I must always say I will be somewhere with an extra 1/2 hour added in for the 'just in case' scenario, which always tends to occur!

You can view the entire collection of tee's HERE!

Here we go again...

Gonna be a busy one tonight again! Drew soccer practice 5:30, had to ask another Mom if she could take her since I have to have Grace to her volleyball game 30 minute drive max by 5:45, game is at 6pm, hope it's over by 7:30pm, (they play 3 games actually). My Dad is picking Drew up at 6:30 and bringing her to the volleyball game with him. Thank the Lord for able grandparents!

I spent the day cleaning out and organizing the girls' room! Man, are they pigs! I had no idea it was as messy as it was. I took out 3 garbage bags full of random broken toys, and pure garbage that they neglected to toss out properly! Candy wrappers, crumpled paper, old food...Gross! How it got this bad, I have no idea! But...they will be keeping up my hard work on their own, or I will blow up next time!
Now you can actually SEE the floor!!!

When it rains...it pours!

Just a quick run down...
Had to buy a new camera about 2 months ago, mine broke and repairs ended up totalling $113.00!!!
Bought a whole new set of tires for my van just less than 2 weeks ago, mine were all at the wear bars.
NOW: My vaccum has been making terrible terrible sounds, and I finally took it in to see what the heck was going on. Well, turns out to be some $100+ repair...translation: NEW VACCUME MUST BE PURCHASED. My husband says to me, "Just look on craigslist." WHAT? Sorry, but for me, buying a used vaccume, is like buying used underwear? I just would never do it! I would have no recourse should anything happen to it, and then I'd be right back in the same boat I'm in now. I JUST SIMPLY CANNOT LIVE MY LIFE WITHOUT A VACCUME CLEANER! Actually, being OC, I could never live without a vaccume regardless of having kids or not! Any other mom's to many know what I mean??? Life with toddlers, well, it just requires that you have a vaccume handy in working condition! The cracker crumbs are making my skin crawl as we speak...

As if I didn't already have enough laundry and cleaning to do:

Beau has been having to have multiple bed changes due to completely overflowing and saturating during the night...after so many weeks of being dry all night long!

Leah somehow took the juice pitcher out of the refridgerator and dumped the whole thing upside down onto the living room carpet!!! STICKY STINKY APPLE JUICE IN A PUDDLE ON MY CARPET! AUGGGHH!!! You don't even want to know how angry that made me, finding it as I was rounding them all up to take the girls to practices.

Drew, for some absolutely unkown reason, had an 'accident' last night. ANOTHER LOAD OF LAUNDRY! I do not understand this one, and I hope it doesn't happen again.

Lord, please humble me during this trying time!