Today
was a seemingly promising day.
A wonderful, happy, joyful day.
I woke up early, made the kids pancakes and scrambled eggs. Woke them up one by one, starting with Drew. She had to be to school early for a field trip, by 8:15 exactly, having me out of the house by 8ish.
I was fine with this. I woke up feeling much better today, than I have in 3 days. I was raring to go! No mishaps delayed us, not even Little Lulu...
what a wonderous thing that was!I dropped Drew off at school, she forget her backpack...the panic attack started in...she started tearing up, near hyperventilating...I had to tell her to calm down, it was a field trip day anyway, and it was NOT a big deal, teacher would understand for today! She literally had to make herself take a few DEEP breathes before she would get out of the van. OMHH, that girl can get so worked up over so little a thing.
Then,
being that I had to drop her off early, I decided to go ahead into town for a few much needed groceries. I also had to exchange a sundress I had bought Leah, it was missing a button, and the strap tie was all messed up. I also had to go to Target to get a few sale items such as laundry detergent, kids mouthwash, kids vitamins...you get the jist.
Anyway...Target went fine. I found a few great clearance items! So excited, an airsoft bat, ball, mitt w/ ball, and a few balls for $3 each, got a set for the cousin too! I also found a pair of soccer cleats for Drew for next year for only $4.98!!! I scored, kids were great, that was making the day seem even better...
Then, it all started to
crash!Leah started balling, kept saying, over and over she had an owie on her b u t t. I stripped her to see what she was talking about, and changed her diaper thinking it was bugging her, bunching up or something. Nope, not it. So, she kept patting the front, saying her b u t t hurts. I finally figured out, she needed to pee. She had been dry all night, and still was.
Easy enough, I took her to the dollar store I had stopped at to get some little baseball bases I had seen, only they said, 'No Public Restroom', so I had to carry her all awkward to the grocery store down the way, which
had a bathroom, and sat her on it. She REFUSED to go! I knew that was what the problem was, but she threw this helacious tantrum that I'm sure echoed throughout the entire store, and
REFUSED TO PEE! How she could hold it in, I do not know!
What the ???
I carried her back to the dollar store, we got our stuff. As I was carrying her out to the van, she stopped crying, but...I quicky realized she pee'd, only,
ALL OVER ME!!!! It overflowed to the max down MY SHIRT,
and through her entire diaper, pants, and dress, down her legs! I was speechless...

We live out of town, I was NOT driving home to change, and come back to get the rest of what I needed to get at Costco. So, I drove to my parents and got a change of shirt for me, luckily I had gotten Leah a shirt on clearance at Target for $2, which at that point totally 'fit' her. I mean, 'fit', her like, it said, TROUBLE MAKER across the front. I was so sour at this point...
I honestly had so many emotions running through me, I was a wreck.
Why Why
Why ME???
Why TODAY?This has me so upset about how hard it has been to potty train that girl. It makes me want to deny her any more diapers, and make her run around naked till she figures out how gross it is to pee all over HERSELF!
But, I won't do that, I can't do that in this house with the new flooring we have put in. I refuse. So, I guess, in part, this is my doing.
I will take responsibility for it to some degree. But, it truly tells me that she knows. She obviously has some control, or why, how could she hold it in to the point of being painful, and then continue on holding it through sitting on a potty, an me running water to help her go? I just don't understand how she is able to do so.
Anyway...from there, it ALL started to crumble, slowly, but surely.
My bubble of tolerance burst!
They started fighting with eachother, and Leah kept whining,
"I just wanna go home Moooooom!"NO NO NO, I HAD TO MAKE THIS AN 'ALL IN ONE DAY' TRIP! With gas prices going up daily, I cannot make double trips to get what I need when they start acting up!

I took them to the park. I had packed thier little munchlers lunch packs,
which they LOVE, they ate very well, and played.
I started to feel yucky, and get tired, they were tired...naps from 2-4pm!
The girls got home, and I went out to weed, I hate it, but it had rained last night, and so it's much easier to pull them when the ground is mostly wet.
I hollered the girls out to help, and they did. Drew loves helping, and the boy ran to get his little wheel barrel, and rake too.
To end on a nice note...As Drew and I finished, we heard a funny noise, and looked up to see a beautiful hummingbird hovering above my new hummingbird feeder D got me for Mother's Day. It saw us, and hovered a bit more, but then quickly darted off. Drew was very intrigued. She said she had never seen one before so close. She smiled so big. It humbled me. The
GOOD Lord knew I needed it today!
Now, at nearly 11pm, I have just finished baking the much requested oatmeal/granola bars for the kids, and am off to finish 2 more loads of laundry...
Oh, the life of a Mom!