Speechless...

Well, not really. I have a lot to say.
Nobody wants to hear it. Ever. But, I say it anyway.

I have times when the anger grows so rapildy inside, that I can't stop the overflow of thoughts turned to words.
I have many that I can't suppress right now.

I would like to physically harm people at times. I think we all would.

I would like to grab them by thier shoulders, and shake them til they can't see straight.
But, then, it's because of them not seeing straight in the first place, that I am at this point of rage.

Perception is everything. No one person can perceive anything the same way that you do. It creates a lot of frustration at times.

All I know is that I have passed the stage of being passive, and letting well enough alone. I have crossed the line toward pure hate. It may very well be UN-HOLY, but at this point, I don't care.

Back stabbing, stealing, lying...none of those are HOLY acts.

This person will no longer be a part of my life.
This is my Intervention, my statement to you. You have lost me forever. I will no longer sit passive and let you stab me in my back while you laugh. I will no longer let you hurt me. Wall is Up.

When it rains...it pours!

Just a quick run down...
Had to buy a new camera about 2 months ago, mine broke and repairs ended up totalling $113.00!!!
Bought a whole new set of tires for my van just less than 2 weeks ago, mine were all at the wear bars.
NOW: My vaccum has been making terrible terrible sounds, and I finally took it in to see what the heck was going on. Well, turns out to be some $100+ repair...translation: NEW VACCUME MUST BE PURCHASED. My husband says to me, "Just look on craigslist." WHAT? Sorry, but for me, buying a used vaccume, is like buying used underwear? I just would never do it! I would have no recourse should anything happen to it, and then I'd be right back in the same boat I'm in now. I JUST SIMPLY CANNOT LIVE MY LIFE WITHOUT A VACCUME CLEANER! Actually, being OC, I could never live without a vaccume regardless of having kids or not! Any other mom's to many know what I mean??? Life with toddlers, well, it just requires that you have a vaccume handy in working condition! The cracker crumbs are making my skin crawl as we speak...

As if I didn't already have enough laundry and cleaning to do:

Beau has been having to have multiple bed changes due to completely overflowing and saturating during the night...after so many weeks of being dry all night long!

Leah somehow took the juice pitcher out of the refridgerator and dumped the whole thing upside down onto the living room carpet!!! STICKY STINKY APPLE JUICE IN A PUDDLE ON MY CARPET! AUGGGHH!!! You don't even want to know how angry that made me, finding it as I was rounding them all up to take the girls to practices.

Drew, for some absolutely unkown reason, had an 'accident' last night. ANOTHER LOAD OF LAUNDRY! I do not understand this one, and I hope it doesn't happen again.

Lord, please humble me during this trying time!